{"id":2751,"date":"2016-04-11T03:49:07","date_gmt":"2016-04-11T03:49:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.fullofcrow.com\/poetry\/?page_id=2751"},"modified":"2016-04-13T02:14:25","modified_gmt":"2016-04-13T02:14:25","slug":"kai-coggin-april-2015","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.fullofcrow.com\/poetry\/archives\/kai-coggin-april-2015\/","title":{"rendered":"Kai Coggin, April 2015"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u2318 Deja Vu<\/strong><\/p>\n

Deja vu, from the French \u201calready seen\u201d
\nis a strange phenomenon.
\nA deja vu just unfolded in front of me,
\na slow motion wormhole of a moment
\ncollapsing in on itself before my eyes, implosion.<\/p>\n

As soon as I said to myself,
\n\u201cI\u2019m having a deja vu,\u201d it started to dematerialize,
\ndeconstruct itself into another moment,
\nrelease its hold of illusion on time and space
\nand fold itself back into this seeming reality in which I
\nwake up and write poems into the white space of cyberia.<\/p>\n

The scattered objects on my desk,
\ndog-eared poetry books,
\na blinking light,
\nmore poetry books,
\nenvelopes holding letters,
\nuncapped pens,
\na wilting orchid plant,
\nmy eye movement on computer screen,
\nthe cold of morning radiating off the window next to me,
\nfrozen hands pounding out keys, joining words,
\nas I start another poem,
\nand there it was,
\na deja vu,
\na split second of life on repeat,
\nthe intersection of short-term and long-term memory,
\na moment that I have had before,
\nor a moment that I have dreamed of having.<\/p>\n

Deja vu is a vacuum,
\nit is time and space trying to catch up with itself,
\nit is circular truth trapped in linear enforcement,
\nit is prophecy and permission unveiled,
\nit is glimpsing deeper in unraveling,
\nit is peering from out of body, seeing as Soul,
\nit is consciousness that remains nameless,
\nbut we have all felt it, haven\u2019t we?<\/p>\n

When a moment unfolds and shakes you from the numbness,<\/p>\n

and you know you have been here before,<\/p>\n

you know, for a moment, you are where you should be.
\n\u2318 Are you flirting with me?<\/strong><\/p>\n

If I answered your question truthfully,
\n\u201care you flirting with me?\u201d
\nI would tell you how I have already turned
\nyour bottom lip into a poem a hundred times,
\nshaped your chin into a place to rest my kisses
\nand taken your hands into my steeple,
\nmake a prayer out of me,
\nturn me inside out and holy underneath your touch.<\/p>\n

Yes, I am flirting with you.
\nYes, I am trying to make you see
\nwithout seeing that I have loved you
\nfor more days than I can remember to count.
\nA thousand times I think of you,
\nwhisper your name into the quiet space,
\nthat is the invisibility of this desire,
\nthat is the longing that stays with me,
\nbut is barely opening up to you,
\nbecause I have taken the time,
\nI have paced this wanting,
\nI have formed this yearning out of lust and air,
\nand now it is a real, breathing thing,
\nyour body, almost the trembling ground
\nI can maneuver with my fingers,
\nyour voice, that answers back and asks,
\n\u201care you flirting with me?\u201d<\/p>\n

So much more,
\nso much more than flirting,
\nI am flirting with danger, with uncertainty,
\nwith a growing hope swelling in my chest,
\nto think that we could make a fire out of our willing bodies,
\nout of our vacant mouths howling for a lover
\nwe have yet to know in each other,
\nmy untethered heart
\nis moving toward the fencepost of your standing
\nup for something as beautiful as this.<\/p>\n

Yes, I am flirting with you.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Kai Coggin is a poet and author living on the side of a small mountain in Hot Springs, AR. She holds a BA in Poetry and Creative Writing from Texas A & M University. Her work has been\u00a0published or is forthcoming in\u00a0Blue Heron Review, Lavender Review, Broad!,\u00a0The Tattooed Buddha,\u00a0Split This Rock, Yellow Chair Review, ANIMA, Elephant Journal,\u00a0and many other literary journals,\u00a0as well as anthologized in several international collections. \u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Kai is the author of\u00a0PERISCOPE HEART\u00a0(Swimming with Elephants Publications, 2014). Her poetry has recently been nominated for The Pushcart Prize and Bettering American Poetry 2015. \u00a0She is also a Teaching Artist with the Arkansas Arts Council. \u00a0www.kaicoggin.com<\/a> \u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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